world music star Ed Sheeran has revealed that he “didn’t want to live anymore” after the deaths of his friends Jamal Edwards and Shane Warne.
Edwards, a music impresario who helped launch Sheeran’s career, died in February 2022 at the age of 31. His death came shortly after Sheeran’s wife, Cherry Seaborn, was diagnosed with a tumor.
The musician revealed that doctors told him his wife, six months pregnant, needed surgery for a tumor that could not be done until after she had given birth to the couple’s second child.
Sheeran, 32, said that although Seaborn carried their daughter, Jupiter, to term and underwent successful surgery in June, she felt “so helpless” at the time.
Meanwhile, the night before he learned of Edwards’ death, Sheeran said he went out to dinner with pop star Taylor Swift and her boyfriend, actor Joe Alwyn, and was texting with Edwards about plans to film. a video the next day.
The global pop star added: ‘Twelve hours later, he was dead. My best friend died. And he shouldn’t have.
Ed began seeing a therapist to help him cope with his feelings, which made him feel “really ashamed” about his seemingly “selfish” thoughts.
He continued to Rolling Stone magazine: “I felt like I didn’t want to live anymore. And I’ve had that throughout my life. You’re under the waves drowning. You’re like in this. And you can’t get out of it. I’ve always had very bad moments. lows in my life. But it wasn’t until last year that I really tackled it.”
Sheeran went on to say that as a father he was “really embarrassed” by his seemingly “selfish” thoughts, saying it was Seaborn who discovered what was going on and advised him to see a therapist.